So I was wondering if I was actually in Ketosis or not. I've had some people tell me that it's hard to tell when you hit that ... stage? I always thought it was a decrease in appetite with an increase in energy. I'm missing the latter.
[I]Symptoms of ketosis include general tiredness, abrupt or gradually increasing weakness, dizziness, headaches, confusion, abdominal pain, irritability, nausea and vomiting, sleep problems and bad breath. [Cleveland Clinic Journal of Medicine 68(2001): p.761][/I]
Well, I'm in it .. I have the tiredness, weakness (thinking about Thursdays aerobics class - thought I was going to DIE), dizziness, headaches, always confused and irritable. Thankfully I don't have the abdominal pain, nausea and vomiting or sleep problems. The bad breath ... no one has said anything. Then again, I haven't been that close to anyone today. I'll just have to make sure I brush my teeth ... a lot. I just hope it helps.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Today's Meals
I haven't had hardly anything today.
"Breakfast" - two and a half pieces of bacon (my son took the other half of my last piece)
Lunch - Half of a South Beach Diet Chicken Caesar Wrap Meal
Snack - 1/2 cup honey roasted peanuts and cashews and one string cheese stick (I've got to find some new snacks)
For dinner I plan on having a salad. I'm hoping I can hold of a couple hours for that.
My feelings today. This morning I felt pretty good. It wasn't until around 2:00pm that I started feeling ... lonely. Hubby is at a wedding. My little girl is watching a movie. My little boy is taking a nap (that's a rarity now-a-days). I'm just kinda here. I wish I had someone to call. I wish I had plans for me and the kids. I wish I had a life.
"Breakfast" - two and a half pieces of bacon (my son took the other half of my last piece)
Lunch - Half of a South Beach Diet Chicken Caesar Wrap Meal
Snack - 1/2 cup honey roasted peanuts and cashews and one string cheese stick (I've got to find some new snacks)
For dinner I plan on having a salad. I'm hoping I can hold of a couple hours for that.
My feelings today. This morning I felt pretty good. It wasn't until around 2:00pm that I started feeling ... lonely. Hubby is at a wedding. My little girl is watching a movie. My little boy is taking a nap (that's a rarity now-a-days). I'm just kinda here. I wish I had someone to call. I wish I had plans for me and the kids. I wish I had a life.
Friday, June 22, 2007
Yesterday and Today
Well, yesterday for lunch I had another "Olive Garden [Like] Salad". Dinner ... nothing. Amazingly enough, I wasn't hungry. That and I didn't know what to eat ... probably because, for once, I wasn't craving anything. Nothing sounded good. I did have a few cashews and a string cheese stick about 30 minutes before bed. But I felt good ... and NOT hungry.
This morning was pretty much the same ... I didn't want my usual eggs and a meat and there wasn't anything else that sounded good. Not even the donuts that I purchased for the kids ... I didn't want them! However, around 11am I finally started feeling hungry. I wasn't able to eat until after 1:00 though. We went to a local restaurant where I ordered a bbq chicken salad thing. It was good and HUGE. I only ate 1/3 of it. Normally I'd leave a 1/3.
Some feelings I've had in the last 24 hours?
(1) Excitement - first from finally getting into Ketosis and second from finding and getting a good deal on a ROUND kitchen table (we've been looking for one forever).
(2) Exhaustion - I thought with Ketosis came energy but I've just been so tired
and
(3) Fear - I have this pair of pants I purchased last summer. I was hanging over them then and before starting LC, I couldn't even get them on. I'm thinking I might be able to fit in them now. I want to try them on BUT what if they don't fit? What if I don't try them on but they really might fit now? What do I do? I don't want to be disappointed but I don't want to miss out on knowing that they fit. I don't know ... maybe I should wait until I hit my 135 mark. Only 4.2 pounds to go.
This morning was pretty much the same ... I didn't want my usual eggs and a meat and there wasn't anything else that sounded good. Not even the donuts that I purchased for the kids ... I didn't want them! However, around 11am I finally started feeling hungry. I wasn't able to eat until after 1:00 though. We went to a local restaurant where I ordered a bbq chicken salad thing. It was good and HUGE. I only ate 1/3 of it. Normally I'd leave a 1/3.
Some feelings I've had in the last 24 hours?
(1) Excitement - first from finally getting into Ketosis and second from finding and getting a good deal on a ROUND kitchen table (we've been looking for one forever).
(2) Exhaustion - I thought with Ketosis came energy but I've just been so tired
and
(3) Fear - I have this pair of pants I purchased last summer. I was hanging over them then and before starting LC, I couldn't even get them on. I'm thinking I might be able to fit in them now. I want to try them on BUT what if they don't fit? What if I don't try them on but they really might fit now? What do I do? I don't want to be disappointed but I don't want to miss out on knowing that they fit. I don't know ... maybe I should wait until I hit my 135 mark. Only 4.2 pounds to go.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
Broken Record
I just realized I repeated myself several times in that last post. Not that I think anyone is reading this but ... remember, this is a journal on my thoughts and feelings. The thought of not weighing this morning keeps going through my mind ... like a broken record.
Breakfast
My feeling this morning? I'm slightly depressed ... disappointed in myself. Why? Because I again put someone else before myself. It doesn't take that long to get out of bed, potty and weigh. But I was convinced that I needed to get breakfast started so hubby didn't have to rush through it before heading off to work. I stepped on the scale AFTER eating ... 141.2.
I know that's not terrible and/or valid really. I just ate! So that means I actually weigh less. But how much less. It's killing me not knowing.
My actual thoughts? I want to be able to get on the scale with clothes on in the middle of the day after eating something and NOT see the 140s. I haven't seen 130-anything since last summer. I was really expecting to see 130-something this morning and I know I might have been but I missed it. I'm disappointed in myself for, again, putting someone else before me (meaning I had to get breakfast ready before DH had to go to work). 2 minutes in the bathroom ... I could have done it ... I should have done it. But I just had to make sure DH didn't have to rush through breakfast ... not like he eats slow in the first place. He can be the last one to fix his plate and still be the first one to empty it.
Anyway, for my mad-at-myself breakfast I had cheesy eggs and ham. The idea was to make an omelet but ... not pretty ... AT ALL.
I know that's not terrible and/or valid really. I just ate! So that means I actually weigh less. But how much less. It's killing me not knowing.
My actual thoughts? I want to be able to get on the scale with clothes on in the middle of the day after eating something and NOT see the 140s. I haven't seen 130-anything since last summer. I was really expecting to see 130-something this morning and I know I might have been but I missed it. I'm disappointed in myself for, again, putting someone else before me (meaning I had to get breakfast ready before DH had to go to work). 2 minutes in the bathroom ... I could have done it ... I should have done it. But I just had to make sure DH didn't have to rush through breakfast ... not like he eats slow in the first place. He can be the last one to fix his plate and still be the first one to empty it.
Anyway, for my mad-at-myself breakfast I had cheesy eggs and ham. The idea was to make an omelet but ... not pretty ... AT ALL.
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Snack and Dinner
Well ... I'm not real sure what my feelings are. I took a short nap on the sofa while my son watched Dora. Afterwards, the family went for an hour and a half dip in the pool. I guess I was relaxed ... as relaxed as I can be without being asleep, that is.
For dinner, I had pork chops and salad. Earlier today for a snack I had some cashews.
For dinner, I had pork chops and salad. Earlier today for a snack I had some cashews.
Lunch
On the menu ... Salad with dressing from The Olive Garden.
I went and purchased a HUGE three pound bag a salad ... the kind with iceberg lettuce, carrots, and red cabbage. I also got a can of large pitted black olives. All that with the dressing from The Olive Garden ... yum!
My feelings ... Before lunch, I felt a since of relief. I had picked a very good low carb meal. One that even hubby would enjoy. During lunch, the kids were eating while we were so everyone's mouths were busy doing something other than complaining or whining so it was nice. Not that we're all done ... back to being irritated and frustrated. Feeling like I'm a single parent raising three kids.
I'm going to try my best to continue on with my staying out of the kitchen. Even though I just finished a BIG salad ... I feel I NEED something else.
I went and purchased a HUGE three pound bag a salad ... the kind with iceberg lettuce, carrots, and red cabbage. I also got a can of large pitted black olives. All that with the dressing from The Olive Garden ... yum!
My feelings ... Before lunch, I felt a since of relief. I had picked a very good low carb meal. One that even hubby would enjoy. During lunch, the kids were eating while we were so everyone's mouths were busy doing something other than complaining or whining so it was nice. Not that we're all done ... back to being irritated and frustrated. Feeling like I'm a single parent raising three kids.
I'm going to try my best to continue on with my staying out of the kitchen. Even though I just finished a BIG salad ... I feel I NEED something else.
Breakfast
This morning I got up and made some cheesy eggs and sausage for both me and hubby. I felt like I was serving a little kid. I put his plate in front of him, he sighed and then picked at his food before forcing it down his throat.
My feelings ...
I'm busting my butt to stick to plan ... mostly to plan ... getting myself in shape for HIM (trying to be the "trophy wife" every man wants). The more in shape I feel, the sexier I feel. My self-confidence goes up with every workout. To me, self-confidence (not overly so) makes a person beautiful. Being happy with yourself is a beautiful thing and I'm finally on my way to that point. He needs to return the favor. I'm not saying he has to be HOT, I'm saying he needs to do something for his health and self-confidence. He's always complaining about "being too fat and too tired to do anything". I'm sick of it.
He wants someone to do this for him. I told him all I can do is help. Honestly ... this was his idea. I went along with it because I needed to get rid of a few pounds and I thought it would be easier if we did it together. Instead, I've been having to battle myself trying not to go overboard when we go out to satisfy HIS cravings.
At the moment, I'm trying my best to stay out of the kitchen. Sadly though, I have to go in it to make the kids breakfast. I'll get them their cereal and then get out ... FAST.
My feelings ...
I'm busting my butt to stick to plan ... mostly to plan ... getting myself in shape for HIM (trying to be the "trophy wife" every man wants). The more in shape I feel, the sexier I feel. My self-confidence goes up with every workout. To me, self-confidence (not overly so) makes a person beautiful. Being happy with yourself is a beautiful thing and I'm finally on my way to that point. He needs to return the favor. I'm not saying he has to be HOT, I'm saying he needs to do something for his health and self-confidence. He's always complaining about "being too fat and too tired to do anything". I'm sick of it.
He wants someone to do this for him. I told him all I can do is help. Honestly ... this was his idea. I went along with it because I needed to get rid of a few pounds and I thought it would be easier if we did it together. Instead, I've been having to battle myself trying not to go overboard when we go out to satisfy HIS cravings.
At the moment, I'm trying my best to stay out of the kitchen. Sadly though, I have to go in it to make the kids breakfast. I'll get them their cereal and then get out ... FAST.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Lunch and Dinner
After picking up hubby from work at 12:35, we went out to eat at a burger place. :P
I picked him up and the first thing I heard from both him and the kids is "What's for lunch?" All I had that was low carb was dinner from last night. Nobody wanted that. I didn't have anything else defrosted. Besides that, I didn't want to cook and get the kitchen that I just cleaned dirty so soon. So we started thinking of places to go. They picked the burger place. I figured I'd be good and just order a salad. After seeing the price for a salad, I changed my mind.
For my irritated, frustrated lunch, I got a bacon cheeseburger with mustard and pickles. The good news is that's all I ordered ... no fries because they were sold separately. The bad news ... that didn't stop me from picking fries off of hubby's and the kids plates. Some more good news, I didn't eat everything. I think I left at least 1/3 of my burger. I was on the verge of being full .. and I stopped myself.
As a "consequence" for my actions ... I had a small handful of cashews for dinner and that's it. I leave for aerobics in 20 minutes. I'm pretty sure I can hold out until then. After aerobics, I'm usually not hungry. Let's hope that still holds true after tonight's class.
I picked him up and the first thing I heard from both him and the kids is "What's for lunch?" All I had that was low carb was dinner from last night. Nobody wanted that. I didn't have anything else defrosted. Besides that, I didn't want to cook and get the kitchen that I just cleaned dirty so soon. So we started thinking of places to go. They picked the burger place. I figured I'd be good and just order a salad. After seeing the price for a salad, I changed my mind.
For my irritated, frustrated lunch, I got a bacon cheeseburger with mustard and pickles. The good news is that's all I ordered ... no fries because they were sold separately. The bad news ... that didn't stop me from picking fries off of hubby's and the kids plates. Some more good news, I didn't eat everything. I think I left at least 1/3 of my burger. I was on the verge of being full .. and I stopped myself.
As a "consequence" for my actions ... I had a small handful of cashews for dinner and that's it. I leave for aerobics in 20 minutes. I'm pretty sure I can hold out until then. After aerobics, I'm usually not hungry. Let's hope that still holds true after tonight's class.
Breakfast
I can never just jump out of bed in the morning. I always hit the snooze button at lease three times. The reason ... honestly, I think it's the fact that sleeping is the only real time I have to myself. I don't have to clean the house, do grocery shopping or tend to the family. It's the one chance I have to do NOTHING. Don't get me wrong, I do love my family ... VERY much. That's why I do all that I do ... to keep them happy.
So I get out of bed around 6:45, get dressed and then get the kids ready to go. We are a one car family so we have to take the daddy to work. As soon as I get home with the kids ... "Mommy, I'm hungry. What's for breakfast?" and "Mommy, can I watch cartoons?" and "Mommy, what are we going to do today? I'm bored already." I go into the kitchen to make breakfast for the kids ... it's a mess!
My thoughts? I had aerobics last night. I left right after dinner. Am I the only adult in the house? Why are all the dishes still in the sink? Why was the crock pot not cleaned out? How did this pot get dirty in the first place? What is this? I'm upset. I'm angry. Sometimes I feel like hubby thinks that because he works outside the home and I don't, that it's my j-o-b to take care of the house and everything/everyone in it ... and he doesn't have to lift a finger. So here I am, making breakfast in a dirty kitchen wishing I could switch places with hubby for just 24 hours. I'm pretty sure either him or the house would fall apart ... maybe even both.
For my angry, irritated low carb breakfast? I thought about eggs and ham but that would just make more dishes for me to clean. Instead, I have 1/4 cup honey roasted peanuts, 1/4 cup cashews, some beef jerky, a stick of string cheese and a Sprite Zero. What I really want ... popcorn, donuts, McDonald's, Sonic, etc.
While I'm typing this, I'm thinking I really need to clean the house. The crock pot still has all the juices in it from pork chops last night. I just really REALLY don't want to clean. I'd rather eat ... but I'm going to use all my power not to. I just hope it's enough.
So I get out of bed around 6:45, get dressed and then get the kids ready to go. We are a one car family so we have to take the daddy to work. As soon as I get home with the kids ... "Mommy, I'm hungry. What's for breakfast?" and "Mommy, can I watch cartoons?" and "Mommy, what are we going to do today? I'm bored already." I go into the kitchen to make breakfast for the kids ... it's a mess!
My thoughts? I had aerobics last night. I left right after dinner. Am I the only adult in the house? Why are all the dishes still in the sink? Why was the crock pot not cleaned out? How did this pot get dirty in the first place? What is this? I'm upset. I'm angry. Sometimes I feel like hubby thinks that because he works outside the home and I don't, that it's my j-o-b to take care of the house and everything/everyone in it ... and he doesn't have to lift a finger. So here I am, making breakfast in a dirty kitchen wishing I could switch places with hubby for just 24 hours. I'm pretty sure either him or the house would fall apart ... maybe even both.
For my angry, irritated low carb breakfast? I thought about eggs and ham but that would just make more dishes for me to clean. Instead, I have 1/4 cup honey roasted peanuts, 1/4 cup cashews, some beef jerky, a stick of string cheese and a Sprite Zero. What I really want ... popcorn, donuts, McDonald's, Sonic, etc.
While I'm typing this, I'm thinking I really need to clean the house. The crock pot still has all the juices in it from pork chops last night. I just really REALLY don't want to clean. I'd rather eat ... but I'm going to use all my power not to. I just hope it's enough.
Why I'm Doint This
What person isn't concerned about their weight? Whether it's losing, maintaining or even gaining EVERYONE thinks about their weight. Numbers are a BIG issue in todays society. As Americans, the stress of those numbers is even greater. Personally, I need to subtract about 15 from mine. It may not be a lot (I know some people need to lose more) but the struggle is still there.
A couple years ago, I lost 40 pounds following a low carb way of eating. Since then, my hubby and I have gone through some financial difficulties leading to (1) bankruptcy and (2) weight gain. I'm currently battling these 15 pounds using low carb again as my weapon of choice. This time, however, I have a new obstacle ... this time, I'm a stay-at-home mom.
I am an emotional eater. I eat when I'm bored. I eat when I'm upset. I eat in celebration. I eat. Staying at home, I have access to the kitchen any time I want it. Having kids, we have all sorts of goodies in the pantry. Having a first grader, we have all sorts of birthday parties. Food is everywhere! I'm constantly fighting the "Munchy Monster".
Okay, so I started low carb last Tuesday. I've joined a low carb forum and have found a tremendous amount of support. Everyone in there has said that I need to start a food journal. I need to write down (or in this case type out) not just what I eat but also what I have been doing between eating and how I feel when eating. So today is the day ... Today I begin recording My Low Carb Adventure.
A couple years ago, I lost 40 pounds following a low carb way of eating. Since then, my hubby and I have gone through some financial difficulties leading to (1) bankruptcy and (2) weight gain. I'm currently battling these 15 pounds using low carb again as my weapon of choice. This time, however, I have a new obstacle ... this time, I'm a stay-at-home mom.
I am an emotional eater. I eat when I'm bored. I eat when I'm upset. I eat in celebration. I eat. Staying at home, I have access to the kitchen any time I want it. Having kids, we have all sorts of goodies in the pantry. Having a first grader, we have all sorts of birthday parties. Food is everywhere! I'm constantly fighting the "Munchy Monster".
Okay, so I started low carb last Tuesday. I've joined a low carb forum and have found a tremendous amount of support. Everyone in there has said that I need to start a food journal. I need to write down (or in this case type out) not just what I eat but also what I have been doing between eating and how I feel when eating. So today is the day ... Today I begin recording My Low Carb Adventure.
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